i'm (not) fine, how are you?

The last two paper lowered my morale big time. This school I'm enrolled for killed my drive to study, like totally. I hardly study so hard for my paper and still cant secure a pass grade. FYI, I started revision since the end of CNY, which means I had three months to start on my modules, revise and re-revise BUT Friday saw me leaving the hall feeling low and depressed. Actually it wasnt the first paper that left me demoralised and depressed, the first paper on thursday didnt go too well either. When I thought I had the chance to pass accounts for once, I came out knowing I was aiming for the impossible. All along during the poly days, I hated accounts like how I abhor cockroaches and I always get a big fat D when the result slips came. Fast forward three years when I finally understood accounts and hope for a pass which is just a fucking 34marks, the paper had to be so tedious. I seh-ed for at least half an hour before the end of the paper thinking about what to do if I fail all four. Drop out, transfer or get a fucken job. Met the rest, their faces were like mine, maybe except for Raine, that silly girl get so hyped up I thought she could easily pass but she was just being herself. Sulked and sighed, called everyone else but they all needed to wait for the car. And I waited, when the call finally came at 11ish, I decided I was too tired and restless to do anything and so I slept all the way till the next morning.

Like what teng says, bell shape curve, moderation. Oh wells, I pray for the best.