We kissed and made up. Yesterafternoon I called mama and apologised. We are happy people now :)

im wide awake, it's morning dude

It was one happy random family dinner we had with the cousins, aunties and uncles. And on the way back home, both me and mom got into a huge fight. Correct, right after dinner. I was just feeling happy and chirpy with all the food (I finally had cereal prawns after much craving!) in the tummy and she HAD TO START her nonsense right after we got into the car. From me and my wake-up-in-the-late-afternoon-go-out-at-night lifestyle to my recent broken relationship and to everything else on the universe that doesn't quite concern me, the journey home I swear was torturous, deafeaning and demanding. And since everyone else was in the car (the cousin and auntie) I did my part, gave her all the respect she needed and kept quiet, which was quite a feat for me and my outburst started straight after we got into the house. Like seeee-riiiously, I'm giving my best effort to change myself now and she did say she's happy that she is seeing more of me at home and I finally want to change my then digusting lifestyle. I don't see the need and why she wants to put me down infront of the relatives. I don't know if she is going through the second phase of menopause or what and I wonder how many phases she will undergo. Goodness! If nagging was one of the core sports in the Olympics, she would have been the defending champion for years, bringing sg countless gold medals and glory to herself. So, I walked out of the house crying like a whinning baby to Bren on the phone, say half an hour later when she did her grand closing statement by swearing that she's never ever gonna talk to me again. I made poor Bren sit with me at the bus stop where I cried my eyes out, whined, grumbled and stared back at people whom I caught staring at me from the bus that pass us by. Now I feel so stupid and unglam(!). Then I made him walk with me to the vending machine, buy either kickapo, rootbeer or coke, sit under the void deck to do nothing but stare into space till Min called. Oh did I mention when I made my superstyling grand exit from my house, I forgot my keys. Yes, I got locked out for no reason by my stupid self. We all ended up at jk, playing Flo and wait for keys so I can go home.

lawl.

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I'm desperate to go for a short getaway before school starts one day before my burpday, no actually before the results slip reaches my mailbox which means doomsday for me and my overweight soul. Now, I going to lie on my bed and do what I do best :) Hibernate. Goodnight lollipops!

cofyyy time

I woke up to the ringing of my phone. 11 messages. One was from shawn, dbl o tonight? Since when the club open on sunday, checked my message details and some of the messages was dated back to 19aug. Okay, my phone's gone cranky, like me.

Im angry with the weather. We, casho and I are supposed to go kite flying, take award winning photos and the storm at sk spoil it all. TSK. Now, I gonna change and meet my princessjasmine for coffee all the way at cityhall. Apparently, she achieved some self-enlightenment and she's gonna help me achieve mine. Ciaos.

went home without you

D and I didn't speak to each other for the entire week. He said he wanted to be left alone. Four days into the week, he threw me a gigmongous bomb, so big it crushes me totally. Came Saturday, that day saw me sitting by the waterfront for the evening crying my tear duct dry. I think I had enough. There was a point where I craved a total disregard for the rules and just wanted to run rampant with streaks of rebellion I had in me. In the process, I crushed not only myself, the people around me and strain relationships which I had no intention to from the beginning of time. But now i feel like a foolish prodigal son who just wants to return to the place he was initially liberated from.

Farewell nasty habits, it's about time I learn to clear up my mess.

I want you still

Is it me or is it the connection just wants to be so fucked up when it comes to 3am in the morning. I called starhub the other day and the person over at the other end assured me this wouldn't happen anymore and then it happens again, so naturally. Then again, maybe it's because I'm the only idiot in the entire block who doesn't put a passcode WEP(?) or whatever fuck you call it and everyone wants a piece of my wireless. Oh wells, this ibm laptop doesn't allow me to set the passcode, not that I don't want it. And talking about this ibm makes my blood boil and my nostrils smoke. Right, best not to talk about it at all.

Anyways, my weekend was good. 9aug was spent with some good company, the bangkok crew in sh's words, doing silly things and half screaming half singing national day songs, cursing orientalmandarin for blocking our view from the fireworks, wanting to get wasted but wasted the night in the end. All was good but evexu said I totally can't do surprises, it wasn't really a surprise to begin with when she already knew we were getting a room. But then again, I admit the cake was meant to be a surprise but it failed anyways when the roomservice guy came up with the cake still in the box. Oh dude! I left instructions to have the candles on the cake and only if the princessy mylar didnt screw up on me. Anyways I hoped you had a good one this year though. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVELYN TSUNAMI!

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I'm leaving you alone for now and I hope things will be fine by the weekend.

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Ohhhh, my life is a joke.